Here’s to a new beginning.
Sabrina Ahmad Azhar.
You’re leaving tomorrow, in less than 24 hours. Previously I thought it won’t affect me that much, you’re just gonna be away for awhile, before you come back. But then I started to realise how much I’ll miss you.
I started to think of how we talk in every hour, for every day. How we call each other every night before we sleep. How we talk until late just to clear up a misunderstanding. How you joke and good around with me on Skype. How we hug. How we hold hands. How you smile. How we kiss.
Bali was a great trip for me. I spent time with friends, and also got to spend a lot of time with you. I loved every part of it, especially the moments involving you.
I’ll always remember how we started. It was through a game, Yardsale. Well, I’m sure we’ve been through this many times, so I shan’t go on about our past.
But like the title suggests, this is about our future. A future where we’re happy and together, although we’re miles apart. Whether I’m with you or not, I’ll never you. You’ve changed me in many ways, and left happy and sad memories for me to cherish, as well as learn from.
Every time I think of you leaving, I’ve to work really hard to hold back the tears. You are a part of me now. You’re one of the reasons why I make it through a day. I might not always acknowledge your presence but you’ve been so important to me. Now that you’re leaving, it feels as if this solid base I’ve been standing on for 25 months is just caving in.
You’re the one I go to when I’ve got problems. It’s going to be tough not being able to talk to you whenever I want. But hey, we’ll make it work. I know we can. We’ve been through different situations together. Tough ones. I know I’ve hurt you many times, and I’m so sorry for that. I deeply regret every action I took which hurt you, which made you cry.
So starting tomorrow, I’ll make sure I’ll do everything right. I’ll make sure you’re always smiling over there, in the UK. And although we’ll be missing each other, just know that my love for you will remain as strong as ever. Distance makes the heart grow fonder.
I’ll be looking forward to every Fb message you send to me, and every Skype session we have. I’ll be all ears, listening to your problems (hopefully you have nil), and trying to solve them. I’ll be here for you, you can count on it.
This will be a new chapter in our lives. A new beginning, social-wise as well as academically. We’ll be busy, no doubt, but there will be time for each other, I’m sure of that.
So sayang, I hope you enjoy your stay there. Have a safe flight, and hopefully you have goodnights and sweet dreams when you’re there. I will always try to wish you personally, of course.
This goes without saying, I love you. So much Sabby. I’ll be trying really hard to hold back the tears when you board the plane. So don’t forget about me alright? I know you’ll have plenty of friends to make there, and I can’t wait to hear your stories about each and every one of them.
I’ll be waiting. I love you.
