Fuck this.
I’d love to tell you how I feel right now. It’s just so hard for me to explain it in words. It’s just a whole lot of pain in my heart.
I’ve tolerated so many things. Whenever you call me late, I’m fine. Whenever you reply late, I’m fine. Sometimes when you want me to stay up, I’m fine. Whenever you do the things that will usually get you mad when I do it, I’m fine.
I even kept all these things in because I don’t want to cause a stir.
I kept all these feelings inside because I don’t want to hurt you. But I’ve been hurt enough. There’s no other way to let go of my frustrations than to put it out there.
I hate this feeling. I’ve never felt like this in a relationship before because I’ve never been put up to such high expectations. What have I ever expected you to do? Just love me, that’s right.
I thought that if I’d held on through last year, this year would be better. It was at the start, but looks like I’ve to hold on even longer.
Why am I holding on? Because I love you. And if you don’t believe me, fine.
Just know that every time you get mad at me, and we don’t resolve things. I cry. Every single fucking time.
I hope you’re doing good because I feel like shit.
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